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[Oct. 23rd, 2005|03:21 pm] |
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I posted this back in January and I read the responses today...they made me realize how much people cared and how much thing have changed
Well, I'm feeling similar to the way I did that day in January so I'm posting it again and seeing just how much things have changed.
Here it is:
You know that feeling when you want to die but:
a) You don't have the balls to kill yourself
b) You realize things like this happen to everyone
c) You're too damn tired to
Yeah...that's the one
I haven't been this sad in a very, very long time |
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[Apr. 6th, 2005|05:20 pm] |
Me trying to cyber with Dan Mantelli:
SavorySurrender: hi
Loudmouth71112: who is this?
SavorySurrender: josh
Loudmouth71112: where did you get my name?
SavorySurrender: my friend tamara told me you were interested in some cyber sex
SavorySurrender: she gave me your screen name
SavorySurrender: do you want to start or should I?
SavorySurrender: are you there hun?
Loudmouth71112: where fo you live
Loudmouth71112: do
SavorySurrender: i can live whereever you want me to baby
SavorySurrender: what are you wearing?
Loudmouth71112: none of your fucking business
Loudmouth71112: this is not funny
SavorySurrender: take it off
SavorySurrender: whatever it is
SavorySurrender: i'm in tight jeans and a red shirt, oops just took off the shirt
Loudmouth71112: what the hell are you a boy or a girl
SavorySurrender: does josh sound like a girls name to you big boy?
Loudmouth71112: faggot
Loudmouth71112: no more
SavorySurrender: oh yeah baby, talk dirty
SavorySurrender: i'm takin off my jeans for you, i know you want me to
SavorySurrender: tell me where you want it
Previous message was not received by Loudmouth71112 because of error: User Loudmouth71112 is not available.
I own |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 5th, 2005|09:40 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  thirsty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Mars Volta - Take The Veil Cerpintax | ] |
We through Tyler a surprise party last night.
My mom officially hates me; I'm getting drug tested every month until college. AWESOME.
Yeah ok I need to go shower. |
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[Mar. 1st, 2005|10:39 pm] |
I'm a vegaterrian now.
And I want to do the Mars Volta.
Oh my god, they're so amazing.
Oh my god, they so are.
Oh my god. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 22nd, 2005|11:38 pm] |
Blink 182 broke up
Don't believe me?
www.blink182.com
HA |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 21st, 2005|12:07 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  nostalgic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bright Eyes - Landlocked Blues | ] |
You'll be free child once you have died
From the shackles of language and measurable time
And then we can trade places, play musical grace
'Til then walk away, walk away, walk away
So I'm up at dawn
Putting on my shoes
I just want to make a clean escape
I'm leaving, but I dont know where to
I know I'm leaving, but I dont know where to
Those lyrics justify killing yourself better than any I've ever read.
I hate the idea of time.
I'm so sick of wondering. |
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| I Have Become Comfortably Numb |
[Feb. 16th, 2005|08:03 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  exanimate | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Pink Floyd - Comfortably Numb | ] |
I've been wanting to kill myself a lot lately.
It's weird though, because I don't want to do it out of depression like most people, I'm mostly just curious about what it's like to die. Since I stopped doing anything in school, I've been zoning out a lot and thinking about life. I think I may be failing a couple classes that I'm perfectly capable of passing if I gave a shit.
Ha.
Ha. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 8th, 2005|04:39 pm] |
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All and all you're just another brick in the wall |
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| It's Times Like These When Silence Means Everything |
[Feb. 8th, 2005|04:13 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  morose | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Snow Patrol - How To Be Dead | ] |
I've been pretty happy lately with the exception of right now.
I let the smallest things eat me up.
I overthink EVERYTHING.
Except for school; I don't think at all when it comes to school anymore.
Damn. |
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[Jan. 26th, 2005|08:28 pm] |
SavorySurrender: i love you
PilotJohn555: eat penis
SavorySurrender: i love you
starrynight5890: lol love you too?
SavorySurrender: i love you
FeltItSlipAway: k
SavorySurrender: i love you
LetoHB31: sweet
SavorySurrender: i love you
Donkeypoo4utoo: I love you too
Donkeypoo4utoo: Got this? That means that you are loved! Send this to 15 people in the next 143 minutes, and tomorrow will be your best day ever! Hurry!!!!! Tonight at midnight your true love will realize they love you. Something good will happen to u at 1:00-4:00 pm tommorrow. It could be anywere phone, outside school, anywere. Get ready for the biggest shock in your life. If you break this chain u will be cursed w/ relationship problems for the next 10 yrs
SavorySurrender: i love you
BudSuKi3306: i love you too
SavorySurrender: i love you
Cera535: and i you
SavorySurrender: i love you
tootiefruitie715: fine! okay!
tootiefruitie715: I love you!
SavorySurrender: I love you
CellophaneApple: thanks
CellophaneApple: why do you hate me though?
I'm lame kk |
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[Jan. 26th, 2005|07:27 pm] |
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I've never felt so alone as when I watched this die. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 24th, 2005|09:22 pm] |
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| |  Lost | ] |
This is the end
This is the calm
We are the resin
After the storm
Rest here with me
Washed up on the beach
This is the end |
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| I Swear We're In A Movie |
[Jan. 19th, 2005|04:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Anberlin - Naive Orleans | ] |
I've gotten sick so much lately. I'm sick again and I now owe the following to my awesome school:
2 Algebra Quizzes
1 Algebra Test
I Algebra Midterm
1 Biology Quiz
1 Biology Midterm
1 E.A. Poe Quiz
1 French Quiz
Oh, did I mention these all need to be made up by Friday?
I'm going to the Anberlin/Hawthorne Heights/Sugarcult concert with Heathmaster. I can't wait. |
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| No Body Said It Was Easy, No One Ever Said It Would Be This Hard |
[Jan. 17th, 2005|06:42 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Coldplay - The Scientist | ] |
So my band played the show Friday and I had the time of my life. I want to thank those of you who went; I hope you enjoyed listening as much as we all enjoyed playing. The other bands were all great, and hanging out with them for a few hours ahead of time was really fun. I hope we can do more gigs soon.
My cousin Grace came for the weekend, along with a bunch of aunts. I seemed to be one of the only people who cared that Tyler blew her off, and for that I was hated by Caitlin, Amanda and Tamara. That was sweet.
Last night there was a party at Tyler B's house. It was good fun. And there was hardly any people skinny dipping stoned out of their minds in Tyler's hot tub.
Today I spent time with my Sutton/Aubrurn crew. That was fun until my mom turned into a Nazi and picked me up at 6 even though I had a ride home later.
On a more serious note, everone's thoughts should be going out to Tony; I know mine are. We're all pulling for you Tony, get better. |
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| I Miss You So Much |
[Jan. 13th, 2005|07:34 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | crappy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Greenday - When I Come Around | ] |
I just did a huge fuckin survey and I tried to paste it but they tell me it's too big.
AWESOME! |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 9th, 2005|09:48 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | crushed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nothing | ] |
You know that feeling when you want to die but:
a) You don't have the balls to kill yourself
b) You realize things like this happen to everyone
c) You're too damn tired to
Yeah...that's the one
I haven't been this sad in a very, very long time |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 8th, 2005|01:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | ! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Saves The Freakin Day | ] |
I haven't updated this year
Let's see...I went to the Post Office Pub a couple days ago, that was fun.
Last night I hung out with only the coolest of cool people (Tamara, Tyler, Amanda and Caitlin).
Today I worked.
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